Anyone reading this blog may see some emotions . Some emotions may be something about anger, sadness , disgust , stress , disappointment , hurt , amusement and more.
I’m sure some faithful may not understand it. But that’s ok . If im bluntly honest , i really dont expect many theists to be those sort of people who will have excelled in understanding these things. For if they did understand easy that way, much of the ongoing abuse still existing within religion today . Might even have already ceased and have disappeared many years ago by now .
Seems the theists faith isn’t really been such a great blessing in teaching theists how to feel and care and show emotion . Many may have even forgotten how to honestly like and love some people too. That’s almost bound to have become part of the by-product of faiths that have also had so much about judgment , separation and aspects of fear mongering and more about them , existing at the very base of their beliefs. Sadly it’s not really going to help things much either ,if there is also a bit of love and charity and stuff talked about a bit here and there.
It’s a bit like fear of the dark doesnt suddenly disappear either , just because someone else says something about everything being ok . Fear of the un-known tends to always strike fear deep within the heart of humans . Becoming deeply ingrained within the human psychology , than any of the fewer good-thoughts will ever do .
Evolution has most likely helped install fearful emotions within humans psychology too. It’s likely it goes way back to very ancient times past ,when human survival depended much on fearful emotion ,and the human ability to be ever-ready to try and quickly take flight out of harms way. Back in them days quite likely every single strange noise, or dark shadow, would have been something that a human was best to greatly fear. At least if they really wanted to try and survive very long. Some may have had fire ,but they still never had guns. And many dangerous animals were faster and more adapt to killing than they were. People would have suddenly gone missing from time to time. A tiger , lion or bears meal maybe . Yet what it actually were, may not have even been known each time it happened . Specially if the person was suddenly stolen away within the deep darkness of night ,maybe not even that far away from fires where they huddled together.
So i understand fears theists have evolved with . Imagine even living back in some ancient times when theists were plenty, and nobody really knew any better about why certain folks died young . And theist of many kinds existed , and mind of man thought , or were taught , it were happening , via hand-of-god or gods and things.
Such deeply ingrained fear can even make animals freeze-up in great terror, im sure it has much the same effect on many theists too .
I don’t even like many things they do,but still don’t feel i need to hate theists. everyone feels differently about these sort of things though. But for me to hate a theist, is almost like somebody hating-on someone who’s got a disability.
Id rather to join hands with some of those more liberal theists , if possible. Many of us are tired of all the ongoing abuse within religion ,both atheist and liberal theist alike. And there is far more strength within numbers. Than division can ever hope to help deliver to anyone .
I have felt angry at times about religion. But after a while i lose some of my anger, and start trying to think, and better understand reasons why theist might seem heartless and uncaring ,when they seem to want to do very little to help any of us bring about some real change to faith abuses that continue on..
I didn’t even bother to expose sex abuse that i experienced while still very young . But why not? some people may wonder . And i understand people who would question why i don’t. I would only say that many people i like and still have some feelings for ,still do exist within the eb. And i know its true that my abuser was also abused ,in the sense that all people who live within abusive cults ,havent really learned very well either, how to care about others around them . That’s the big problem within dangerous cults . Plus i know its more likely this person wont have re-offended ,as it were dealt with at the time by cult members who were in charge . But more than anything im sure this person has their own family now . I don’t enjoy taking away happiness from other people. Any involvement in two wrongs , sometimes don’t help make everything turn out all ok. And anything i might have to gain , might also take something else away from others whom also never should have even needed to have grown up among ongoing faith abuse like so many eb have. But this doesn’t mean i don’t still have full understanding and respect of some other ex eb who have chosen to expose this type of abuse . Because every case is different. And it’s up to each and every one of us to try to figure out what’s best and decide for ourselves, what we think is the best thing to do. If i thought others were likely to be in danger ,i would deal with it differnt than i am.
To be honest, i no longer aspire to make a whole lot of my own life. Much that i had hoped to give to my kids, wasnt obtainable . I’m not talking about money or possessions , im ok in that way . I’m talking my kids having extended family from my side, and maybe them meeting their grandma . But alas that is now far too-late to ever happen now ,seeing i heard not long back, that she has now passed away.
This is all part and parcel of the complete-cost of ongoing abusive faith , that must continually be paid for by somebody who’s been born within it. While so many other well-meaning liberal theists and suchlike sit silently, frozen in fear ,taking little ,or no action at all, to try help change matters.
But ill just learn to be a little happy. If i get to see things finally change sometime before i pass away too. I could feel happy about that. Because while we might have needed to deal with these sort of things ,that doesn’t mean the children of today should also need to. One really wonders sometimes , when will ? more theists learn to hurry and wake up from their deep-slumber . Will it only ? be once these abusive matters of religion is become totally hated by almost everyone