Like it had never happened

There’s this tendency to white wash history. Exclusive Brethren do it.And ex Exclusive Brethren will also.

Why it would need to happen i’m not sure.

I can only guess that perhaps its something to do with feelings of embarrassment .Or shame. Or something like that . Or a bit of both. Who knows?

On my blog.There’s things  i wrote that i’d have reason to feel embarrassed about.Reason to feel shame.And so on.But even so, why white wash it?.What would it achieve ?

Other church groups also try to white wash history, like in regard of the sex abuses for one instance.I guess, due to the embarrassment and shame. Even the Church of England apology to Darwin was 150 years in the making.A little too embarrassing and shameful to face an address, head on, before hand, i guess

Funny thing is (to me) loads of these people are believers (theist) who read a holy book what describe the way human are imperfect.Which then make me wonder, why would anyone even bother to be overly embarrassed or ashamed ?.

I think i’ll air my dirty linen openly .Who knows,perhaps i may even learn something myself from allowing it?. Even if it will take some time to happen.I might even take one step forward and then two steps back,sometimes.I feel what should perhaps matter most to me, is that i’ll continually try and try and try to improve. My history of dirty linen will act as a way for me to measure decline or progress. Points on which to go back and reflect. Perhaps then i’ll be able to learn from reflecting on it, and grow, and then perhaps even begin to change ?

Little doubt (knowing myself) there’s bound to be both decline and progress.But i’m unwilling to beat myself up too much about that.Perhaps i we should not expect too much, of ourselves,considering the lifestyle that cult members and ex cult members were/are all steeped within,often even as young children.Best i can do, is try and make some progress

I’m living out within the real world now.I’ll be constantly encountering loads stuff that i’ll dislike , along with other stuff that i’ll like

The more and more that im being faced head on with it.Perhaps might even help me begin to react a little better in regard to some things i find distasteful?. Specially in regard to social aspects of the internet (not as if i’m forced to co-exist 24/7 with people online?.Silly,perhaps, for me to ever expect that social aspect online would be purposely designed to cater for me?)

Perhaps its about pushing boundaries . Learning about how to widen one’s circle (like what the 1st Ted video ,on altruism and so on, whats being discussed within my previous blog post, i’d titled, health of mirror neuron within cult settings)

If i’d like to see the Exclusive Brethren ,change, and be able to begin to address history head on, rather than white washing it

Then what’s the best way ?

Should i try my best to lead, the way forward.No matter how hard and hurtful it feels,to me, to try and do so. As someone who may also feel that aspect of the real world is better ?.

Or should i expect that cult members might perhaps have better ability to become like leaders ?









About ExEB

I'm a agnostic/atheist . Interested in learning more about science. I also am an "ex-member" of a group most publicly known within modern times, as the Exclusive Brethren. Whom are an off-shoot of the original Plymouth Brethren group. I'd say it likely my personality could possibly be described as quirky.You know ,as in being , unconventional , unorthodox , unusual, off-centre, strange, bizarre, weird, peculiar, odd, freakish, outlandish, offbeat, out of the ordinary, bohemian, alternative, zany I'm sure iv'e been classed as "crazy" . Many times But then, being born into a group like the exclusive brethren. Doesn't lend itself ? to tend to produce things considered as being "very normal" .Does it I escaped the Exclusive Brethren cult as a 15 year old teenager. Even since that time iv'e been trying to adjust to living life outside the cult. With much of my life being lived within the genre of "wild colonial boy" style. In the general sense of a church-rebel picking and choosing from role models who appeared within-life along the way. But as the exclusive brethren cult had traditionally maintained a general church-rule , of need to shun and totally excommunicate any ex member of their group.Treating such people as if they were dead. Thus this situation developed more to do with my need of following traditionally enforced church-rule , as apposed to it being so much about "life-choices". Certain emotional experiences, and parts of life in general, have led to me adopting a sense of low self esteem. Which is a situation i still deal with from time to time. Through my ongoing interest in science. I find i am able to gather more information to help me better understand my situation. Much about life for me, has often seemed like a massive puzzle.With many missing pieces.
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