I feel i noticed in our world, that while people will be more than happy to throw the word “love” around left right and centre. They’ll find it easy to tell you how they love you. Like for instance it may be family,among siblings, or cousin or even your children.

It never seemed real (to me).It always felt, to me, like it was kind of superficial .The word was simply being “recited”, like it was some kind of traditional ritual, because that was what was supposed to happen. It’s what was expected

I always felt like, perhaps i was from another family. Like i can even remember questioning the possibility if maybe i was swapped-over in the hospital just after birth or something?. I never ever totally felt like i belonged among the people i grew up among. Still don’t. Never ceased with feeling like im the black sheep of our family.

To be honest, i have trouble even feeling like i belong in this world. i see people acting so fearful of dying, and i ask myself why the hell that-thought would worry them so much. Considering the sad situation of the ugliness of wars and hunger and strife and violence and so on, that we have going-on all around about us. Homelessness and lack of love. Or for that matter, the sad way in which the word love is constantly being bandied about , even all the while that all of these other ugly things are also still so glaringly obvious

The word love, seems meaningless, in action (above word spoken)

It’s because people have come to expect it to be that way though, right?

After all,our societies have been foundered on holy books of which more or less prophesied that this is in fact the way life will be expected to be for humanity (due to sins of Adam and Eve and the fall ,or whatever, blah blah blah)

Humans, then having been taught that this is what they should expect to observe and experience. Will then hardly even flinch , when in fact they observe/experience ,how this is in fact how it is become

Therefore prophesy is become a self-fulfilling prophesy

Even when it comes to loving each other. Human will love each other superficially. MORE OFTEN than not, they don’t think anything bad of loving one and other superficially either.


Well after all, there are holy books of what also prophesied how this would be likely to occur

They’ve accepted it

So why would human bother to try running against the flow?

That’s not what flocks of sheep usually will do ?

My son tells me he loves me. It will usually only occur on my birthday. I’ll hear what he say, but then i’ll also quietly observe some of the things he does (observe how he acts)

In my heart i know that he doesn’t love me (other than superficially). And to be honest, i also now do find it hard to feel like i actually do love him (honestly)


Because i find it hard to actually honestly love a kind of love of what i feel in my heart , is merely only a superficial form of loving

As,that kind of love,to me, seems unrighteous and above all else something of what’s false (or unworthwhile supporting)

Not sure if ive explained what im trying to talk about ,well enough. Hopefully people will be able to figure it out themselves. I never got the chance to learn properly, in school. So i do my best. That’s the best i can do

What then makes matters worse (in my opinion) is this.

Because I feel as if i’m almost expected to superficially love people, in return, i’ll then find myself saying things so as to try and pretend like as if i actually can honestly say that i do love my son  (or other people)

Its like this charade that we all agreed to play together

A charade of what human are now all busily playing together everywhere all over our planet earth too

Few people would struggle with playing this charade anymore

Why so?

Well it’s already become fairly common practice . And besides, no sense in worrying about it AT ALL

Is there?

After all, even holy books have prophesied (prescribed) how it is supposed to happen

Hold on a minute

But was it really supposed to happen . Was it?. Actually “supposed” to ?

Or was it perhaps a warning, for us ALL, in regard to watching out to not agree to run with it, so as to become involved ourselves in helping to allow it to happen

Who knows

What if the teachings were hijacked ?

What if the teachings were hijacked by men whom were greedy and evil and intent on creating a brain dead flock of human sheep who’d then ALL learn how to accept the suggestion that human would be evil, and accept idea of it enough so as to then also learn to accept loving one another, superficially (doing so, mainly so only because their own minds had been impregnated with the affirmation, that suggested human were fallen and bad. Meaning human would therefore also become afraid to dare to love honestly)

After all

This is more or less what us human have done ?

We have learned to freely accept to learn to love one and other superficially . This fact then will help to explain reason why we may even experience how our own brother will become jealous of us, and may then try and knock us down a peg or two, by trying to run us into some kind of authority  (an experience what i experienced in life).

Or another brother might be fully prepared to leave us for dead , if by doing so, they might then also find some way in which to help feather their own nest a little better

And so on

It’s the way of the world ?. Not like its a situation what could be classed as being “unfamiliar”. Is it

Like, its really not like its anything so extra ordinary .Is it?. Because this superficial way of loving, is pretty much happening everywhere, among ALL people and all tribes and most all families and friends and acquaintances too, now

Why so?

Well partly because human have accepted scripture as being word of God . Accepted it

Without question

Accepted scripture without question

Even when they have no way of knowing for 100% sure whether its word of God in fact ,or not 

Hard to be sure right?

Now that’s a bloody dangerous situation. A situation of what should demand a fair amount of scepticism

For safety sake

Greedy evil men might have hijacked the scripture?

Greedy evil men intent on power grabbing might have hijacked scriptures, and us sheeple human might now ALL be busily with acting none the wiser 


How many people understand the power of affirmation .

How many


How many people sheeple ,will bother to stop and consider their religious faith belief in the light of the power of affirmation

Consider how closely similar it really is

How many will bother to ?

Few will bother to do so. Correct?. Many most will be to far too hyped up on the drunken overdose of emotion they manage to conjure up within themselves through attending emotionally driven religious group gathering session  (which are  extremely similar in effect to rock concert mind-altering ability in regard of people driven through “hyped-up” emotional overdrive)

It’s like a form of emotional high they’ll all achieve there


They become so high on emotion, they’ll then forget about pondering over thoughts quietly on their own steam

As such, they are not even any longer so much in control of themselves(IE: upon having become emotionally sheeple)

There is no possibility that important thoughts (the holy spirit even perhaps?. Who knows) will be able to find a way so as to enter into their head, so as to be pondered over

Why so?

Because there is no room left for it to ever be able to happen. No quiet space left for reflection on their own inner thoughts. Is there? As the human sheeple minds are ALL overflowing with emotionally driven self affirming  clap trap like what they are constantly having forced upon them, and DRUMMED into them, within background-noise of religious gatherings


Today we now live in a world where superficial love is become very common practice

Few of us even stop and think anything much about it anymore?. We just play along with the CHARADE along with everyone else. Generally it doesn’t worry us much. Its common. It’s just become part of life.

Personally i don’t fear death. Death, to me, almost seems to have a peaceful ring, to the thought of it. Mainly because i never felt like i could find a way to feel settled within this life the way it is. Never felt at peace with the superficial way in which human will partake in the shallow charade of pretending to honestly love one and other.

That runs against my own personality

I  know its true that i don’t love my family. How the hell could i HONESTLY love my family?. For instance, my eb family, those folk who carelessly followed Bruce Hales not nearly as almighty as he’d like to think he is, even to the extent that it has caused people to hurt so bad. Some even hurting so far as to attempt to commit suicide (an experience of which i experienced my own eb eldest brother attempt to do,within the time of the review)

Would Jesus honestly even love those people himself ?

Considering the mindless sheeple manner in which they share love superficially among one and other

I find that hard to believe (that Jesus would love them). Even if there might be some scripture what might seem to suggest it could be so

If my eb family ,were to be able to learn how to be totally honest about everything themselves too, then there’s a high chance, that they themselves would also need to admit, that they couldn’t be absolutely honest in ever claiming they feel they love me either. After all, when all said and done, due to FATE of the Brethren CULT they lived within, it then means that none of us have even really had any real proper chance, to actually get to know each other, like what normal family should usually do

But Brethrenism is rife with superficial sense of love. Hell, they don’t even allow their congregation to celebrate weddings together like what normal human being would usually get to do. When i were growing up within the Brethren, we never even went away on a holiday together, because it might need to mean that we might need to miss out on Brethren church meetings

God came between the natural love bond normally shared/formed among human being

There is also scripture what says

Prove all things, hold fast that which is good (1 Thessalonians 5:21)

Ive proved this, to be good advice . Wise guidance

There is also scripture what states

Let love be without dissimulation. Abhor that which is evil; cleave to that which is good. (Romans 12:9)

I seriously doubt scripture, what guides people, to love everyone . Loving everyone is only possible to happen superficially 


You think long and hard about that thought. Be honest with yourselves too. You are not able to HONESTLY  love everyone

Are you

Prove all things. Hold fast to that which is good

And so, because its impossible to do, you’ll then agree to take part in a universal CHARADE, and will pretend to love everyone (IE: superficial love)

Which is also exactly what i feel i do see happening on planet earth .Everywhere too many people are content with pretending..This scripture (love everyone) is therefore acted in a way of what’s become self affirming (see video above).People have found a way to love everyone, but only superficially so

Which in itself, then ends up being a deceitfully evil act

We see evidence of the CHRISTIAN THEMSELVES failing to honestly love everyone. Wont we? . Hell yes. We even see how they fail so badly, they even needed to schism and form many domination and sub groups. Which they then try and sanctify by calling the BIGOTRY  as being a form of loving-togetherness what makes up the one loaf of Gods kingdom. They’ll rather to do that, than care to admit human should forget religion and then ACTUALLY learn how to HONESTLY love one and other. Why do that?. Because the guru require that division would occur. Or otherwise they’ll have no other brilliant way in which to help support their GREED 

When a young British women back packer gets murdered within my country NZ. My countryfolk act/feel bewildered to hear how it had happened. Few will consider how shallow we have become, how dishonest our attitude often are, in regard to true HONEST love for one and other . We have just ALL become far to accustomed to accepting the superficial type of love what now permeate planet earth universally

So accustomed to finding it quite acceptable. We now don’t know any better. Hell ,few people even care anymore either, when there is news of how CULTS  have in fact been busily ruining certain peoples lives. Through excommunication

I find it hard to agree to take part in the charade. It leaves me cold with an unsettled feeling. An empty feeling. Tough going, for me, to ever feel at peace or at ease with the situation. We should remember, just because we find we cannot honestly love everyone in this world, this still needed need to mean we’d then need to go so far as hate people we find hard to love.

Does it

We have no good reason to go so far as to hate people, most of whom are in reality the product of a fucked-up system inspiring people to become great pretenders who’d naturally be more inclined to learn to love superficially

But at least we would then learn to live with more honestly?

We still pick and choose who we hang out with. Connect with. Can honestly declare to feel close to. And so on. Like what we do anyway

But lets at least be honest about it

Rather than learning to try and pretend to love everyone


Just saying

Note: Listen to the video above, then think about how many people ,there will be, worldwide right now, who’ll be listening along to video like this one (or something similar in religious groups). Getting their inner fix and finding a way-out, to still “chill out” and suck on thekoolaide and ALL feel blissfully peaceful, within themselves, even all the while that environmental destruction and global destruction is now looming up fast on the horizon IN FRONT OF THEM. Big trouble with destructive wildfires and floods and hurricane like never seen even half as regularly before now

But hey, at least those sheeple clones can still all manage to remain productive within the capitalist system ? (which suit the hierarchy greedy bastards )

Anyone ever wonder, if perhaps the filthy rich are meanwhile already secretly making plans to look for other planets to inhabit, and settle themselves on?

Maybe few people bother. Perhaps most are floating away within affirmational bliss (que video above)

They’ll listen to affirmation video like that. And ALL faithfully believe, that its true (like what the video “affirm”) ,to say that they themselves are the ones who remain still in control of themselves

Sheep are fairly easy animals to muster






About ExEB

I'm a agnostic/atheist . Interested in learning more about science. I also am an "ex-member" of a group most publicly known within modern times, as the Exclusive Brethren. Whom are an off-shoot of the original Plymouth Brethren group. I'd say it likely my personality could possibly be described as quirky.You know ,as in being , unconventional , unorthodox , unusual, off-centre, strange, bizarre, weird, peculiar, odd, freakish, outlandish, offbeat, out of the ordinary, bohemian, alternative, zany I'm sure iv'e been classed as "crazy" . Many times But then, being born into a group like the exclusive brethren. Doesn't lend itself ? to tend to produce things considered as being "very normal" .Does it I escaped the Exclusive Brethren cult as a 15 year old teenager. Even since that time iv'e been trying to adjust to living life outside the cult. With much of my life being lived within the genre of "wild colonial boy" style. In the general sense of a church-rebel picking and choosing from role models who appeared within-life along the way. But as the exclusive brethren cult had traditionally maintained a general church-rule , of need to shun and totally excommunicate any ex member of their group.Treating such people as if they were dead. Thus this situation developed more to do with my need of following traditionally enforced church-rule , as apposed to it being so much about "life-choices". Certain emotional experiences, and parts of life in general, have led to me adopting a sense of low self esteem. Which is a situation i still deal with from time to time. Through my ongoing interest in science. I find i am able to gather more information to help me better understand my situation. Much about life for me, has often seemed like a massive puzzle.With many missing pieces.
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