Embrace loneliness

Certain environmental circumstances of life pushed me to learn how to embrace loneliness. It was rough going. Im not interested in sugar coating it. But then many things that are worthwhile in the long term. Will also require people to learn resilience along the way as well

I relate to many things said within this video. Even the need for our authenticity. This is been tough to hold on to. Because, with being of a fairly strongly empathetic personality, then you’ll try, for some time, to find a way to please everyone?

Interesting, for me, to note how the lady in the video talk about “the universe inviting you”. That idea spoken about there, is about, the idea that, the present “state of our environment”, would be placing certain “tough to handle” things in front of our own paths we tread in our life, as a way what to also help guide and direct us to what to help do something, so as to try to remedy this situation,of what we will have learned though our own experience, already, is acting to make life tough going for some people. Most likely way more people, than just only ourselves. Which in turn, can, sometimes help to grow our feeling of empathy

Upon knowing this ourselves, in very clear way, we then can have gained an insight, ourselves, of what other people might not have any way themselves ,to ever learn anything about for themselves. Due to their own pathway, in life, being so different (perhaps easier?) than what our own pathway, has been

Here again, this is the phenomena, what people can sometimes be heard to describe as being like “the school of hard knocks”

People that can hang-in there long enough, and struggle on through the rocky road, then they may some day have a chance to gain practical qualification , of the type what in the main part, cannot ever be taught to people who are the so called “luckier ones” in life, who instead may only get the usual “university type” education degree, and so forth

As people who’d been through the school of hard knocks.Though it might need to be a huge long struggle. Once we finally come out the other side of this struggle. We will then start to see all kind of “wonderful options” of what then finally begin to suddenly open up for ourselves

We may find it so much easier, ourselves, to clearly SENSE and understand things to do with the likes of “social sciences”. And suchlike

Someone who’d easily understand exactly what it is im describing here (in my own very unconventional way) would be Gabor Maté


My ongoing struggle, right now at this present moment in time, is to find a way how, to not offend the learned “conventionally taught educated”type peoples feelings too badly, all of who’d been through the standard university style way of learning. For some of these people can have very fragile ego?. Just saying

Its not my intention to make enemy. I’m an inclusive person at heart. I love everyone, (Even people who’d turned bad,due to experiences of environment aspect of their life pathway). I still do value their-own traditional style knowledge . How to still make this clear,while retaining my own authenticity as well at the same time, is what i’m working on presently right now.

This is the stage what i’m personally at right now. And again, for the most part, i’m needing to revert back to making use of my own knowledge, all of what were ONLY learned via school of hard knocks. So, its still fraught with certain pit falls and danger .

What doesn’t kill us. Can stand to continue to help make us, even more resilient, and stronger, and hopefully perhaps slightly wiser?

I can joke and laugh about it. But only because this has ALSO often needed to be my own-way of survival mechanism too. I’ve learned to laugh even when i’d been rather wishing like i wasn’t living anymore. But being an empathetic inclined person personality, naturally so due to certain rough life experiences, never could i think to take my own life. No way. Never. Being that i also known (through my own experience as well, of my siblings past effort, to try doing so to themselves) how this would only then in affect, go on to cause “hurt and pain unto other people” too, who know-me and who like me. I have good people in my life, even if not my own flesh and blood relation, who’d learn about it through the grape vine, and then perhaps be “beating themselves” up about it, in worrying about whether they perhaps “should have” been doing stuff to help. I certainly don’t want this, as i’m actually totally thankful enough already, to all these amazing caring kind wonderful people, of OUR WORLD

Whakawhetai to you people

Sadly the school of hard knocks can take up to 40+ , to finally get close to your final day of graduation , haaa hee hee . Perhaps you never quite finish learning either?. And chances are, you’ll certainly not even ever receive any fancy piece of paper, in which to “proudly” display up there on your wall either , hee heeeee

Shit happens

No biggy as truth is, i couldn’t care less about this small detail. I still wouldn’t have my life run any other way, now i know, about, all what ive learned?. Although , perhaps it might have been nice, sometimes, to have family who’d support and to work alongside me?. But then, maybe then i’d get to miss out on ability of learning all the many vital finer detail, of struggling and frustration and so many important unconventional-detail and so on

So all in all

I’m very thankful for everything now (even Brethren for being the assholes like what they are, too?. Yes i think so)

Whakawhetai to you universe


Whakawhetai to you too mother earth

Whakawhetai to Brethren assholes too

PS: special thanks too, to Bruce Hales Almighty review Wrecker. Cheers m8. Hope you can be feeling real-wonderful, today now, about yourself now too?

“Nice one Brucie”, i can now see how you did extremely well by me, taking-up your own valuable time, to be so kind and caring, in your own bumbling messy way to think to teach me about EXACTLY who you are?.Wow truly wonderful thing. Im feeling so grateful now. And to think how, i might otherwise never ever have been able to learn these things, without you caring to be so carefully thoughtful, and through with your own expert way in teaching-me these finer details, of our life’s lessons. To you too Brucie Hales, Whakawhetai to you e’ho

Interestingly to note, that in your own messy unconventional bumbling way,Brucie, you are actually in fact, an active force for good,in your own right?. Wow wow.Who would have even guessed this might be so?

Without closer retrospection

You teach us what is extremely bad to happen to people lives. Teach us all about whats highly detrimental to peoples mental health and well being and so on.So our whole world can then gain knowledge, ourselves, as to why certain aspect of our environment, should have VALID reason to have need to change

You are a little bit like the master teacher?. Sort of act little bit similar to like the Brethren equivalent of a “Jackie Chan  drunken style “martial artists way?

Lucky for you too huh Brucie?, Brethren folk all very very very experienced “whisky drinker”, all very very very experienced, bumbling-fighter too . All show lot “of spirit” as well , very very extremely drunken bumbling “style of spirit”

Even some Brethren children,  also learn Brethren whiskey drink, “drunken style”, fight plan too?. Complete with swearing highly masterful fight-plan of calling people “cunt” and so forth, and any other outright abuse of people who’d dare to counter?. Brethren can most surely expect to become “all very Zen-like” with their drunken style, master fight plan?

Truly amazing to watch

Absolutely anything beats fear of needing to  humble oneself enough publicly and admit to wrongdoing, or perhaps begin to honestly act so to in some way compensate people who been mistreated bad ?

Very very masterful plan



Ka pai

Its always been my real pleasure sparring with you

About ExEB

I'm a agnostic/atheist . Interested in learning more about science. I also am an "ex-member" of a group most publicly known within modern times, as the Exclusive Brethren. Whom are an off-shoot of the original Plymouth Brethren group. I'd say it likely my personality could possibly be described as quirky.You know ,as in being , unconventional , unorthodox , unusual, off-centre, strange, bizarre, weird, peculiar, odd, freakish, outlandish, offbeat, out of the ordinary, bohemian, alternative, zany I'm sure iv'e been classed as "crazy" . Many times But then, being born into a group like the exclusive brethren. Doesn't lend itself ? to tend to produce things considered as being "very normal" .Does it I escaped the Exclusive Brethren cult as a 15 year old teenager. Even since that time iv'e been trying to adjust to living life outside the cult. With much of my life being lived within the genre of "wild colonial boy" style. In the general sense of a church-rebel picking and choosing from role models who appeared within-life along the way. But as the exclusive brethren cult had traditionally maintained a general church-rule , of need to shun and totally excommunicate any ex member of their group.Treating such people as if they were dead. Thus this situation developed more to do with my need of following traditionally enforced church-rule , as apposed to it being so much about "life-choices". Certain emotional experiences, and parts of life in general, have led to me adopting a sense of low self esteem. Which is a situation i still deal with from time to time. Through my ongoing interest in science. I find i am able to gather more information to help me better understand my situation. Much about life for me, has often seemed like a massive puzzle.With many missing pieces.
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