ON DISLIKING ONESELF

Christendom is been great at promotion of self loathing attitudes?

I feel it has been. But then, there are reason for why they chose to adopt these idea too. Because it had also help Christendom to then be able to maintain a regular flow of congregation member. Who would then help to boost the church coffer as well. Which then allowed Christendom to become “most powerful” too

It was/is a cunning plan. Also an evil one . Most of all, a highly destructive one as well, when considering the huge amount of harm and broken family relationships and so on of what have developed. And an utterly immoral plan. Who knows why Christian would bother to continue to see and portray, their faith-base, as being best base for high morals? (im picking the same reason for why Brethren will also continue to be inclined to still see their-Brethrenism,  as being seen as something similar too. Could it be ego based belief, perhaps?)

 

 

Below is a quote from a great essay by “The School of Life”  people, taken from within their essay titled ON DISLIKING ONESELF  . (Note: be sure to go and also read the full essay as well too, via the link below. I feel its an essay whats very well worth reading, specially for people with a cult background )

Quote:

It’s so horrific to have to acknowledge that we were badly or unfairly treated, in an especially bizarre phenomenon we’re liable to turn the anger we might in theory feel towards our erstwhile flawed caregivers back onto ourselves. We end up preferring to dislike who we are rather than accepting a yet more horrible idea: that someone we needed to adore wasn’t very nice to us. We can end up lacking any capacity for anger, for that would require a basic sense of self-worth and therefore an idea that we had been violated. Most of us are just numb. Or, in an effort to numb, we gorge on drugs, porn, love affairs, fame or processed sugar… The path of self-hatred points everywhere other than its real source: those early years.

 

How does one ever dig oneself out of the mine-shaft of self-hatred? For a start, by becoming a  better historian of our selves – and therefore being able to hold on to the idea that we hate ourselves only or primarily because we were once not loved. This has a structure so basic it feels like an insult, but to make the concept resonate with one’s actual experience can be the task of a lifetime.

 

On Disliking Oneself

 

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About ExEB

I'm a agnostic/atheist . Interested in learning more about science. I also am an "ex-member" of a group most publicly known within modern times, as the Exclusive Brethren. Whom are an off-shoot of the original Plymouth Brethren group. I'd say it likely my personality could possibly be described as quirky.You know ,as in being , unconventional , unorthodox , unusual, off-centre, strange, bizarre, weird, peculiar, odd, freakish, outlandish, offbeat, out of the ordinary, bohemian, alternative, zany I'm sure iv'e been classed as "crazy" . Many times But then, being born into a group like the exclusive brethren. Doesn't lend itself ? to tend to produce things considered as being "very normal" .Does it I escaped the Exclusive Brethren cult as a 15 year old teenager. Even since that time iv'e been trying to adjust to living life outside the cult. With much of my life being lived within the genre of "wild colonial boy" style. In the general sense of a church-rebel picking and choosing from role models who appeared within-life along the way. But as the exclusive brethren cult had traditionally maintained a general church-rule , of need to shun and totally excommunicate any ex member of their group.Treating such people as if they were dead. Thus this situation developed more to do with my need of following traditionally enforced church-rule , as apposed to it being so much about "life-choices". Certain emotional experiences, and parts of life in general, have led to me adopting a sense of low self esteem. Which is a situation i still deal with from time to time. Through my ongoing interest in science. I find i am able to gather more information to help me better understand my situation. Much about life for me, has often seemed like a massive puzzle.With many missing pieces.
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